Happy New year 2011

Have you ever say sorry? or felt guilty?


Taking responsibility and saying that you are sorry about something you did wrong is one way you can let go of guilt. Guilt says, "I did something wrong and so now I have to feel bad." There are two kinds of guilt.

Helpful guilt is an emotion that comes from the conscience when you have done something you know is wrong. Guilt helps you look at your behavior and say, " what I did was wrong for me and
it hurt someone else. this is helpful guilt, it gets you to change.

There is another kind of heaped on guilt that is not helpful. This is extra guilt where you feel guilty but you always feel like you are right and the other part have to say sorry to you.
This guilt is NOT productive.
Anyway as for me saying sorry is not easy as you pour a water on the floor and clean it with anything. and you think its clean??

Saying sorry is like you really do feel sorry to her and tell the person to her face what you are sorry about. Or you can even write a letter, or you can put in the blog or even talk to that person
and tell them of your regrets that you hurt the person. Even if it has been years and years ago
since you hurt someone, you can still write about it and say that you are sorry...

Let me start by saying sorry to all that I love, first to myself...

Dear Min,

I am sorry I have hurt you for the past 43 years. You have gone through so much suffering to the point you have practically given up hope of ever knowing who you are or what you can accomplish. I have lead you down the road of deep depression alot. Please forgive me. I have never known how to love you but always put others happiness before you. No one is perfect and you don't have to regret for what you have now. .and your husband, your son, even your daughter is not perfect either. Just accept for who you are..
Please forgive me..Ya Allah please forgive me, help me, guide me and give me strength to help myself become a whole person who loves herself. But most important please give me a second chance to help me undo all the wrongs I have done to myself.

to my parents...
Dear Mak and Bapak,

I can't tell you enough or in the right words how sorry I am for the things that I've done.
I wish I could turn back the time. I am sorry that I caused so much trouble for you both when you were alive. Mak..I am sorry I yelled at you sometime when I was a teenage.
Bapak..I'm sorry for all those thing I did that make you feel hurt. . I am glad you are my parents because though life was not perfect I would not have become the person I am today.

to my sister..

Sorry for all the arguments. Really do love you all although I find it hard to show and to be able to tell you properly. I am sorry I yelled at you all sometimes when I was angry. You are the best sister in the world and I hope you all can forgive me.

to my friends..

To Nana, do you know that you are my best friend? I am sorry for all of the times I made you feel bad and I wish I could take them all back. Our relationship may never return to normal, and I regret it deeply.

To kak Sapia, you are my best friend forever (BFF) I am sorry for all the times I've hurt you and made you feel bad. Now when i look back on it i feel like such a hipocrit because i know i would hate it if you did that stuff to me. You have every right to be upsets with me and I respect that.

To my dear friend Zara, farzana, Noris, Ez, Lia, Hani, Sya, Manal, fara, edora, Anita, Narila, ALiza, Akmal, Kak Jida, Azi, Yesh, Ezwan, Fadzli, Anuar, Zul, Fairuz, Aida, Cherry, Lim, Yana, Rose, Ina, Azni zeti, AKmar, Melinda, you are all my friends, I do not want to make you feel bad about anything. You are wonderful to me, I will forever be grateful that I've had the privilege of knowing you all. and I love you all very much.

To all my friends out there..I am sorry for all my mistakes. You are my best friend and i do not know what i would do with out you.

To my darling angel, Tasya, I'm sorry for getting mad most of the time at home. I know it made you so sad and you didn't deserve it. I love you. I wasn't even mad at you at all. I wish you would have been able to skip school so I could hang out with you and hug you. I didn't mean to make you sad.

To my boy Afiq, I'm sorry that I hurt you. My feelings were hurt. I feel really bad and sad about hitting you. I want to be your friend and I won't hit you anymore. I'm sorry I yelled at you sometimes. Im' sorry I have driven fast, with you in the car, when angry with you. Please forgive me. I will refuse to listen to that little voice inside me that says you are stupid and worthless and will never amount to anything. I will never get mad at you again when you make a mistake. Everyone makes mistakes why should I expect you to never make one. I will never punish you again for trying your best and it was not up to the standards I expected out of you. I will affirm you with thoughts of love only. I will take care of you and love and help you see that the little child in you was only doing what he thought he could do to protect himself. I am sorry for all of the things I've done to you. You were the best thing that ever came into my life. I love you so much.

To my dear husband...

Im sorry for been a very angry person for those years ago. . All this time I thought I was doing the right thing, but I wasn't. All I want is for our family to be happy, and I will do whatever needs to be done to assure that. We are getting old and We have change alot, I know that. ..

and lastly..
Ya.. Allah ampunkanlah dosa-dosa hamba mu ini.
I'm sorry. I'm awful and horrible and rotten on the inside please forgive me and help me. my family means the world to me i dont want to hurt them anymore. My point is..let just hugs forgive and forget and say sorry to all we love. Have a good new year 2011 !!!