her siLence from my world

don't leave you said to me and for a moment i feared i'd stay ..

but your plea rang hollow so i quietly walked away i can see you through the glass and i wonder was it done in vain now i'd do anything to simply make the pain go away

if you'd have me ..

i'd take you back again and erase the mistakes i've made

if you'd have me ..

i'd take you back again and add to the mistakes i've made

i remember morning light and i was waiting for u and and u was'nt there

my cry was like a shower to clear my head

everyday a reminder of what a fool i've been seemed

when i left you i'd left everything i'd known now you have shown me i'm not the person

i thought i was i believed in you i had faith in you i was there for you now i'm lost in you

Just a memory

deaR bestfren,
The love that I have for you
Is done and dead, it's so far away
But you're still here in my head
And you're still here, you'll never leave my heart

Just when I thought things were alright
You came and ripped out my heart
My stomach's full of butterflies
The thought of you gone, it tears me apart

I cant remember how u look like
sometime i cried all night until i fell asleep,
And i know we're through
But i've still got thoughts of you left inside my head

So stop me now
Stop my thoughts cause you're killin me
But you don't know
Even though we've grown apart
I'll still be there for you
Cause I don't wanna be just a memory to you ..

How's it been goin?.

the peaceful of siLence

(from my old blog)
06:29 PM, June 8, 2004 .. 0 comments .. Link
... well.. life's has it's ups n downs.. ups are when: u have such a good time talking to family,
even tho it's only by phone thanks to distance; u actually get to do work; enjoy times n laughs
with friends; getting to know ppl that u never tot u'd get along with so well; learning who i am
more n more, n lots more experiences; for not knowing wat the future brings etc....

the downs? for thinking too much which causes ur muscles to tense up :) yes, for those who
know me.. we very well know what that leads to.. ; for kicking urself when u can't concentrate on
work; for being confused n worried about things; for the black shades in ur life..


~sad ej.

siLence of me

Kapas Island

SiLence nite at the beach

During last school holiday,I went to Pulau Kapas for vacation with my kids
and husband and siblings. We were so frustrated and we learn a lesson, this is my last vacation in that Island.

The accomudation and servise at the chalet we rented was awful.
First...

Service is so bad. We reach there about 3pm without any lunch.
No ala cart menu for guest. You can only eat during
a specific time for buffet and only when you had
in advance via booking (b'fast/lunch/dinner) and if
you decide to cancel it they still charging you for that.
The room was disaster (although tidied up)
Especially the bathroom - its awful!
The tv only have one local channel.
No hot shower. No air-conditioning and I stayed at my
sister's room event it was there it was a crap!
It switched off by it self every couple of hours
and you have to restart it again.
The place was totally messed up and not well-kept.
I do not recommend this chalet (Makchik Gemuk chalet) or
call it MGH (Makcik gemuk Holding) the cekik darah chalet!!.

Anyway..the Island itself was sooo beautiful, snookling down there, It was heavenly, as you can imagine(thanks to my beloved sister Yah)..I had a good time and my silence nite (it was priceless) at the beach while my husband busy with his fishing trip.:)