something to share

the peaceful of siLence

A story to share because when I read this I realise all the things my parents did for me and now I hope one day I will be able to do the same for my children......

So touching!!

Pencil: I'm sorry....

Eraser: For what? You didn't do anything wrong.

Pencil: I'm sorry cos you get hurt bcos of me. Whenever I made a mistake, you're always there to erase it. But as you make my mistakes vanish, you lose a part of yourself. You get smaller and smaller each time.

Eraser: That's true. But I don't really mind. You see, I was made to do this. I was made to help you whenever you do something wrong. Even though one day, I know I'll be gone and you'll replace me with a new one, I'm actually happy with my job. So please, stop worrying. I hate seeing you sad. :)

I found this conversation between the pencil and the eraser very inspirational. Parents are like the eraser whereas their children are the pencil. They're always there for their children, cleaning up their mistakes. Sometimes along the way... they get hurt, and become smaller (older, and eventually pass on). Though their children will eventually find someone new (spouse), but parents are still happy with what they do for their children, and will always hate seeing their precious ones worrying, or sad. This is for all parents out there..... Take Care….

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the peaceful of siLence

I cant believe time passes really fast. Just with a blink of an eye, we are already 5 days in the year 2011. Looking back at 2010, i can say that this is so far the BEST year of my life. In another words,
IN SHORT : PEOPLE OF ALL WALKS OF LIFE.
I am really thankful for this. I now know who are my true friends and who are not. I know how people in the REAL world out there behave, and how selfish can one be. Not only that, I now know how some people can twist words around and make it sound really bad and also people who are out there to defame you.
But best of all, i am thankful to those who stood by me. You know who you are.
A lot of things too happened in my life besides
Lets see what else happened. OH YES, I started photography. I’ve been wanting to learn about photogs all my life. I admit i still suck at it, but hey im learning. And i wont give up.

HAVE A BLAST IN 2011 and GOOD LUCK TO YOU WHO ARE READING THIS - and keep on reading my blog. HAPPY NEW YEAR 2011!
and yes I've learned to forgive those who had hurt me. 2011 is the year of a brand new start!

Happy New year 2011

Have you ever say sorry? or felt guilty?


Taking responsibility and saying that you are sorry about something you did wrong is one way you can let go of guilt. Guilt says, "I did something wrong and so now I have to feel bad." There are two kinds of guilt.

Helpful guilt is an emotion that comes from the conscience when you have done something you know is wrong. Guilt helps you look at your behavior and say, " what I did was wrong for me and
it hurt someone else. this is helpful guilt, it gets you to change.

There is another kind of heaped on guilt that is not helpful. This is extra guilt where you feel guilty but you always feel like you are right and the other part have to say sorry to you.
This guilt is NOT productive.
Anyway as for me saying sorry is not easy as you pour a water on the floor and clean it with anything. and you think its clean??

Saying sorry is like you really do feel sorry to her and tell the person to her face what you are sorry about. Or you can even write a letter, or you can put in the blog or even talk to that person
and tell them of your regrets that you hurt the person. Even if it has been years and years ago
since you hurt someone, you can still write about it and say that you are sorry...

Let me start by saying sorry to all that I love, first to myself...

Dear Min,

I am sorry I have hurt you for the past 43 years. You have gone through so much suffering to the point you have practically given up hope of ever knowing who you are or what you can accomplish. I have lead you down the road of deep depression alot. Please forgive me. I have never known how to love you but always put others happiness before you. No one is perfect and you don't have to regret for what you have now. .and your husband, your son, even your daughter is not perfect either. Just accept for who you are..
Please forgive me..Ya Allah please forgive me, help me, guide me and give me strength to help myself become a whole person who loves herself. But most important please give me a second chance to help me undo all the wrongs I have done to myself.

to my parents...
Dear Mak and Bapak,

I can't tell you enough or in the right words how sorry I am for the things that I've done.
I wish I could turn back the time. I am sorry that I caused so much trouble for you both when you were alive. Mak..I am sorry I yelled at you sometime when I was a teenage.
Bapak..I'm sorry for all those thing I did that make you feel hurt. . I am glad you are my parents because though life was not perfect I would not have become the person I am today.

to my sister..

Sorry for all the arguments. Really do love you all although I find it hard to show and to be able to tell you properly. I am sorry I yelled at you all sometimes when I was angry. You are the best sister in the world and I hope you all can forgive me.

to my friends..

To Nana, do you know that you are my best friend? I am sorry for all of the times I made you feel bad and I wish I could take them all back. Our relationship may never return to normal, and I regret it deeply.

To kak Sapia, you are my best friend forever (BFF) I am sorry for all the times I've hurt you and made you feel bad. Now when i look back on it i feel like such a hipocrit because i know i would hate it if you did that stuff to me. You have every right to be upsets with me and I respect that.

To my dear friend Zara, farzana, Noris, Ez, Lia, Hani, Sya, Manal, fara, edora, Anita, Narila, ALiza, Akmal, Kak Jida, Azi, Yesh, Ezwan, Fadzli, Anuar, Zul, Fairuz, Aida, Cherry, Lim, Yana, Rose, Ina, Azni zeti, AKmar, Melinda, you are all my friends, I do not want to make you feel bad about anything. You are wonderful to me, I will forever be grateful that I've had the privilege of knowing you all. and I love you all very much.

To all my friends out there..I am sorry for all my mistakes. You are my best friend and i do not know what i would do with out you.

To my darling angel, Tasya, I'm sorry for getting mad most of the time at home. I know it made you so sad and you didn't deserve it. I love you. I wasn't even mad at you at all. I wish you would have been able to skip school so I could hang out with you and hug you. I didn't mean to make you sad.

To my boy Afiq, I'm sorry that I hurt you. My feelings were hurt. I feel really bad and sad about hitting you. I want to be your friend and I won't hit you anymore. I'm sorry I yelled at you sometimes. Im' sorry I have driven fast, with you in the car, when angry with you. Please forgive me. I will refuse to listen to that little voice inside me that says you are stupid and worthless and will never amount to anything. I will never get mad at you again when you make a mistake. Everyone makes mistakes why should I expect you to never make one. I will never punish you again for trying your best and it was not up to the standards I expected out of you. I will affirm you with thoughts of love only. I will take care of you and love and help you see that the little child in you was only doing what he thought he could do to protect himself. I am sorry for all of the things I've done to you. You were the best thing that ever came into my life. I love you so much.

To my dear husband...

Im sorry for been a very angry person for those years ago. . All this time I thought I was doing the right thing, but I wasn't. All I want is for our family to be happy, and I will do whatever needs to be done to assure that. We are getting old and We have change alot, I know that. ..

and lastly..
Ya.. Allah ampunkanlah dosa-dosa hamba mu ini.
I'm sorry. I'm awful and horrible and rotten on the inside please forgive me and help me. my family means the world to me i dont want to hurt them anymore. My point is..let just hugs forgive and forget and say sorry to all we love. Have a good new year 2011 !!!

Its ramadan again 2010

the peaceful of ramadan

To all Muslims, wherever you are, let's welcome the holy month of Ramadan al-Mubarak wholeheartedly. Fasting is not only an ibadah but practically a good test against all forms of greed and hunger...

ALHAMDULLILAH.Thanks you Ya ALLAH for giving me an opportunity to experience Ramadan again..It's a bless and hopefully this Ramadan will bring Rahmat, hopefully my Ramadan this year is better then before. I never spend my Ramadan outside Malaysia.

Through fasting we learn to give up things which may give us pleasure for the sake of higher principle. The Prophet taught us to spend Ramadan in acts of charity, feeding the poor, and assisting those who are less fortunate. In fact, the fasting is not complete until food or money is given to those in need beside Ramadan is not about food..it's holy month.
But don't be suprise some muslim will talk about having nice the fast at the hotel. I am not a rich person but I always remember this, Ramadan is blessed time when all Muslim gather together. It is time to remember the poor, strive to please Allah by being the most generous and it is time of much prayers. Come and join me Iftar with the orphan kids everyday at Kemuning Utama Surau. Insyallah.
Have a bless ramadan.

Improve your life

the peaceful heart

Just something to share...
In a letter to his wife Jai and his children, Dylan, Logan, and Chloe, he wrote this beautiful "guide to a better life" for his wife and children to follow.May you be blessed by his insight.

POINTS ON HOW TO IMPROVE YOUR LIFE

Personality:
1. Don't compare your life to others'. You have no idea what their journey is all about.
2. Don't have negative thoughts of things you cannot control. Instead invest your energy in the positive present moment
3. Don't over do; keep your limits
4. Don't take yourself so seriously; no one else does
5. Don't waste your precious energy on gossip
6. Dream more while you are awake
7. Envy is a waste of time. You already have all you need..
8. Forget issues of the past. Don't remind your partner of his/her mistakes of the past. That will ruin your present happiness.
9. Life is too short to waste time hating anyone. Don't hate others.
10. Make peace with your past so it won't spoil the present
11. No one is in charge of your happiness except you
12. Realize that life is a school and you are here to learn. Problems are simply part of the curriculum that appear and fade away like algebra class but the lessons you learn will last a lifetime.
13. Smile and laugh more
14. You don't have to win every argument. Agree to disagree.

Community:

15. Call your family often
16. Each day give something good to others
17. Forgive everyone for everything
18. Spend time with people over the age of 70 & under the age of 6
19. Try to make at least three people smile each day
20. What other people think of you is none of your business
21. Your job will not take care of you when you are sick. Your family and friends will. Stay in touch.

Life:
22. Put GOD first in anything and everything that you think, say and do.
23. GOD heals everything
24. Do the right things
25. However good or bad a situation is, it will change
26. No matter how you feel, get up, dress up and show up
27. The best is yet to come
28. Get rid of anything that isn't useful, beautiful or joyful
29. When you awake alive in the morning, thank GOD for it
30. If you know GOD you will always be happy. So, be happy.

While you practice all of the above, share this knowledge with the people you love, people you school with, people you play with, people you work with and people you live with.Not only will it enrich YOUR life, but also that of those around you.

Family Day

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Finally I have the time to blog this post. It’s a real pleasure for me as this is our fifth family day. The photo session was taken on a bright Saturday morning at Isma Chalet, location at Padang Kemunting, Malacca.
The starting was rather slow as the children need some time to get use with the place around, and after about 10 mins, we begun rock ‘n roll! This 2010 family day also brings back a lot old memories we have here. Our first family day was happen here at the same location on 2006. I will try to search the photo and share out to everyone once I get my internal hard drive here.


So, here’s some of the photos for sharing…

My siser and her family watching her sand castle flood away..

Addin the Winner for "Pijak Belon" this year.

2009

Year 2009- Family Day was happen at the same place but at Deruan Ombak, Chalet.

This game was to call "rebut gula-gula" meaning you have to grab as much as you can the sweets.

My beautiful niece and nephew.

Don't speak

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"Don't Speak" (tak payah cakap apa-apa)

You and me (who ever think she is always with me lah..better don't ask)
We used to be together together always
I really feel That I'm losing my best friend

(do i have one?)
I can't believe This could be the end
It looks as though you're letting go And if it's real Well

(never mind lah if u tink boyfren is lagi bestkan then a fren)
I don't want to know Don't speak
I know just what you're saying So please stop explaining
Don't tell me cause it hurts Don't speak I know what you're thinking
I don't need your reasons Don't tell me cause it hurts
Our memories Well, they can be inviting
But some are altogether Mighty frightening
As we die, both you and I With my head in my hands
I sit and cry Don't speak I know just what you're saying
So please stop explaining Don't tell me cause it hurts (no, no, no)
Don't speak I know what you're thinking I don't need your reasons
Don't tell me cause it hurts It's all ending I gotta stop pretending who we are... You and me
I can see us dying...are we? ( I noe ur not)Don't speak I know just what you're saying
So please stop explaining Don't tell me cause it hurts (no, no, no)
Don't speak I know what you're thinking I don't need your reasons
Don't tell me cause it hurts Don't tell me cause it hurts!
I know what you're saying So please stop explaining
Don't speak,don't speak, don't speak, oh I know what you're thinking
And I don't need your reasons
I know you're good, I know you're good, I know you're real good
(I know you are a real good pretender)

p/s: Since today is Deepavali I would like to wish Happy Deepavali to Dato Samy Vello, Jaclyn Victor, Ashawarai, my fren Sujata, Vincent, my neber Rani and to Mr. Balan my english teacher ( i hate u coz u failed my exam and I didnt get my cert)

raya 2009

SeLamat Hari RaYa 2009
I will like to take this opportunity to wish all my friends in advance, especially to all my RWP friends, Lia, Fara, Ez, Edora,Ida, Aida, AkmaL, Akma, Yana, Yuhai, Ezwan , Rose, and tini.
And also to my friend Zack and Zack fren fara..Wish all and your family a blessed Raya and may this season bring joy and laughter and don’t forget the unfortunate ones.

May all the goods things come this year for everyone.

I’m sorry I didn’t extend my Raya greeting earlier but Raya is for the whole month of Syawal and today is only the 8th day of Raya, right? I just came back from a long weekend at my hubby hometown, at Denai 5, Jb.

To my non Muslim friends..
Happy Holiday!

Ku Pohon Restu Ayah Bonda by Al Jawaher, one of the most ’syahdu tangkap leleh’ Raya song, besides the ever popular Dendang Perantau by P. Ramlee and Dari Jauh Ku Pohon Maaf by Sudirman.

We started our ‘balik kampung’ journey at 6am, reached Banda Kaba around 8am. The road was pretty clear so we had the road all for ourself, all the way up. That explained the 2 hours drive from KK to BK. We stopped by in Nilai before continuing our journey to Banda Kaba.

I spent my time in my Kampung like how I normally do it when I’m back home. Helping my sister Cooking for takbir raya food, and after that eating all I can (my puasa effort during the fasting month went down the drain), watching tv and meeting some old school friends.

Lastly, a community message brought to you by a responsible blogger..chewahh
Please drive safely and be alert on the roads.I need you to stay in one piece to continue reading and commenting on my blog It is boring for me to read my own shits..

Raya09 memory

hahh...this is all anak-anak frenz and sister who's coming during raya

ahaKs..so sejuk, its early morning tau

raya at my kampung house - this old buruk house was use to be my house

and I miss the precious moment.

raya with niece Alia Sofia

Ramadan Kareem

the peaceful of siLent

Tomorrow , once again, the blessed month of Ramadan will be with us; once again, like ‘golden hours on angel wings’, will descend upon us its blessed moments.
No time is like the Ramadan time. For in it lies that night which is ‘better than a thousand months’, the ‘Night of Destiny ... in it the angels and the Spirit descend’ (Al­Qadr 97:1-4). It is ‘that blessed night in which was made distinct everything wise’ and ‘a warning’ and a ‘mercy’ was sent down which God has always sent for mankind (Al­Dukhan 44: 3-6).
That is why the Fasting is placed in Ramadan. In this technological age, when clock has become the only measure of time and every concept of sacredness of time has been erased from human memory, some may find it difficult to visualize how every moment of Ramadan encompasses centuries in it, how it allow us to draw nearer to God at a much faster pace.

I would like to wish everyone the blessings and mercy of God during this month and always. Let us help ourselves and one another improve our condition, keep sight of what is most important, and show compassion to all those around us. Have a blessings Ramandan Al-Mubarak. I love you all my friends..

New Office New friends..

the peaceful of siLence

Friday 7th August 2009
I am stuck in the bed, warm and cozy, when the rain pouring outside. Nice, I am taking a day leave today. Feeling miserable last night over this stupid incident of my car kaput, and my stomach went upset the whole night. I decide not to think too much on work matter. and I wont let these people to ruin
my life.. No way.. ...
Deep inside, I need to think some plan which has been derailed quite some time.
I even have not take my medical check up yet for more then 4 months,

All because of this piece of shit I have been into lately. And being a working slave, do I need to make other people miserable too?
I noticed I will be happier working at RWP and hanging out with same type of people I used to have before and it is proven. Well I don't say that my so call "kerang team" is not good :)

To all my Pipeline Team Ex RWP, you all are always in my heart. We are still in one of the best team, One for All and All for one..yeaHaa!

Usahlah berdendam

the peaceful of siLent

Apa yang baik, belum tentu benar. Apa yang benar, belum tentu baik. Apa yang bagus, belum tentu berharga. Apa yang berharga atau berguna, belum tentu bagus.Fikiran dan mulut merupakan suatu kombinasi. Semakin banyak kita berbicara tentang diri sendiri, semakin banyak pula kemungkinan kita untuk berbohong. Jika kita tidak dapat menjadi orang pandai, jadilah orang yang baik.Lidah kita yang menentukan siapa kita. Jika kejahatan di balas kejahatan, maka itu adalah dendam. Jika kebaikan dibalas kebaikan itu adalah perkara biasa. Jika kebaikan dibalas kejahatan, itu adalah zalim. Tapi jika kejahatan dibalas kebaikan, itu adalah mulia dan terpuji.Sesungguhnya sebagian perkataan itu ada yang lebih keras dari batu, lebih tajam dari tusukan jarum, lebih pahit daripada hempedu dan lebih panas daripada bara. Sesungguhnya hati adalah ladang, maka tanamlah ia dengan perkataan yang baik, kerana jika tidak tumbuh semuanya (perkataan yang tidak baik) nescaya tumbuh sebagiannya.Iri hati yang ditunjukan kepada seseorang akan melukai diri sendiri. Kita cuma hidup sekali saja di dunia ini, tetapi jika kita hidup dengan benar, sekali saja sudah cukup.Seorang teman sejati akan membuat kita hangat dengan kehadirannya. Seorang teman adalah yang dapat mendengarkan lagu di dalam hatimu dan akan menyanyikan kembali tatkala kau lupa akan bait-baitnya. Bertemanlah dengan orang yang suka akan kebenaran. Dialah hiasan di kala kita senang dan perisai di waktu kita susah.Tiada seorang pun yang sempurna. Mereka yang mau belajar dari kesalahan adalah bijak. Menyedihkan melihat orang berkeras bahawa mereka benar meskipun terbukti salah. Bila kita mengisi hati kita dengan penyesalan untuk masa lalu dan kekhuatiran untuk masa depan, kita tak akan memiliki hari ini untuk kita syukuri.Sekali tidak berhasil bukan bererti gagal selamanya. Belajarlah dari kesalahan orang lain. Engkau tidak dapat hidup cukup lama untuk mendapatkan semua itu dari dirimu sendiri.Smart people learn from their own mistakes. Smarter people learn from the mistakes of others. A Champion is someone who always try to get up even when he/she can't.Ubahlah apa yang masih boleh diubah. Terimalah apa yang memang sudah tidak boleh diubah. Hindarkan diri dari perkara-perkara yang berpotensi yang akan mendatangkan perubahan buruk.

- copy paste from email

the peaceful of siLence

“A friend is someone who understands your past, believes in your future, and accepts you just the way you are.”

“A friend is someone who, upon seeing another friend in immense pain, would rather be the one experiencing the pain than to have to watch their friend suffer...

the peaceful of siLence

Even though we've changed and we're all finding our own place in the world, we all know that when the tears fall or the smile spreads across our face, we'll come to each other because no matter where this crazy world takes us, nothing will ever change so much to the point where we're not all still friends.”

To my dear Siti Norhana..Semuga Allah swt sentiasa melindungi Hana- Mami

Do appreciate what you have NOW.

the peaceful of siLent

Peace of Mind - Monday Morning Motivation;

Do appreciate what u HAVE....NOW!

GRATITUDE is POWER , and here's why.... When you are thankful for what you have - for the friends you have, and for the things you've got, you attract more good people and good things! People who always complain about what they DON'T HAVE, stay stuck. Complainers attract more things to complain about! It is a law of life. It's hard to explain, but you can observe it around you. We get more of what we dwell upon. That's why all the spiritual masters have taught the same lesson ..... 'Start by being thankful. Be happy with what you have now, and more will come your way.' It's practical advice. IN A NUTSHELL Every time you say a silent 'thank you' you become more peaceful – and more power - (cut and paste from the email.)

smiLe coz I Love you!!

cheers-ej

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Peaceful of Ramadan

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Alhamdulillah, Its already 23 days fasting in Ramadhan. Definitely for me, this will be the best ramadhan so far . I have made a lot of changes in my attitude compare to previous ramadhan.
God willing! … still can remember how busy i could be during last ramadhan, where i would be busy with life all days and doing nothing. Those days when it came to fasting month, i would only work-eat-sleep and watching tv. This year those negative attitude must be thrown away. Therefore I made a commitment that this fasting month would be different from those years and I shall get out from my paradigm.

I Thank You Allah for the blessing given during this month, I do have gastric and now I know my gastric is due to overeating. For those who try to be lazy and making excuses not to fast during Ramadhan, I do not blame you for it. What I am asking you to do is to be sincere with yourself during this month.Ramadhan is definitely a month full of blessing !
I cried everytime I heard this song..

kumengharapkan ramadhan...
kali ini penuh makna...
agar dapat kulalui...
dengan sempurna...
selangkah... demi selangkah...
setahun sudah pun berlalu...
masa yang pantas berlalu...
hingga tak terasa pun...
berada di bulan ramadhan..semula...
kumengharapkan ramadhan...
kali ini penuh makna...
agar dapat kulalui...
dengan sempurna...
puasa... satu amalan...
sebagai mana yang diperintah NYA...
moga dapat kulenturkan... nafsu yang selalu...
membelenggu diri... tiada henti henti...
kumengharapkan ramadhan...
kali ini... penuh makna... agar dapat kulalui...
dengan sempurna...
kumengharapkan ramadhan... kali ini... penuh makna...
tak inginku... biarkan ramadhan... berlalu saja...
tuhan pimpinlah... daku yang lemah...
mengharungi segalanya... dengan sabar...
kumengharapkan ramadhan... kali ini... penuh makna...
agar dapat kulalui... dengan sempurna...
kumengharapkan ramadhan... kali ini... penuh makna...
agar dapat kulalui... dengan sempurna...
kememohon pada tuhan...
diberikan kekuatan...
kemerayu pada tuhan...
diterima amalan...
selangkah... demi selangkah...
dengan rahmatmu oh tuhanku... kutempuh jua...

Thank you Allah

the peaceful of siLence

On the 12-09-08 I got to know the news that I can get the keys.Can you believe that?? Get my new house keys??? That's crazy, everything just come to well for me suddenly in just merely 3 days time and I received so many good things, I could not accept the fact that I am bless during this ramadhan- Alhamdulilah. And I am so thankful, very sincerely Thanks to Al-Walid for all I have this year.

Give thanks to Allah

Give thanks to Allah, for the moon and the starsprays in all day full, what is and what was take hold of your imandont givin to sjeitan oh you who believe please give thanks to Allah.Allah o Ghefor Allah o Rahim Allah o yihibbon Mohsinin,o Khalikhone o Razikhone whahoe ala kolli sjeiin khadir
Allah is Ghefor Allah is Rahim Allah is the one who loves the Mohsinin, he is a creater, he is a sistainer and he is the one who has power over all.
Give thanks to Allah, for the moon and the starsprays in all day full, what is and what wastake hold of your imandont givin to sjeitan oh you who believe please give thanks to Allah.Allah o Ghefor Allah o Rahim Allah o yihibbon Mohsinin,o Khalikhone o Razikhone whahoe ala kolli sjeiin khadir
Allah is Ghefor Allah is Rahim Allah is the one who loves the Mohsinin,he is a creater, he is a sistainer and he is the one who has power over all.

ej

My busy Weekend

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My busy weekend
Clothes are packed, coffee in the turmos and bottle packed, with baggage all ready.we are going back to JB, for MIL’s anniversary and celebrating first day of ramadhan. I can’t wait to taste my favourite Lontong kering and Curry Noodles again. My husby can’t wait to eat all his favourite kempas Otak-Otak again. Afiq and tasya can’t wait to play under the rambutan trees and see all her cousins again. This week is a busy week for me, not even have time to blog hop! but its so nice can have a short break like this. :P

I think its more fun to be up the tree then under the rambutan tree.

Wahashtene my LiL AkMa

the peaceful of siLence

I got a strong sense that the new girl standing across from me didn't like me too much on her first day in the Pipeline Department at RWP. Apparently, she thought Im the type of hot tempered person, and my fierce face shown that. (correct me if I'm wrong K'ma) I didn't set out to prove myself to her, but it must've happened because before long, the two of us became friends. It was an unlikely pairing to say the least. One day we were alone in praying room and I've notice that there is something I liked about her. I never would've thought that we had much in common, We just got along so well (when she wasn't driving me crazy with teasing, etc.).
Yes, like the others, she teased me often. SHe used to yell "Penerbangan Pertama!!" "(the first passenger leaving)(i used to be the first one leaving office when I'm driving alone) when I walked out the door. Somewhere along the line, she changed it to "BYE kak MIN" or something else, I realize she was just teasing me.
I've learned that: She was an outdoorsy type. Very fit, but not into fitness, just into doing things she enjoyed. Just to do it. She was a free spirit who enjoyed life. "She could never sit still,"

Im still learning about her . "She was always on the go. She biked. She hiked." I am not surprised when I heard she's leaving RWP KL office traffers to Singapore Office.
I don't know what drew the two of us closer, but I do read her blogs often. and I admired her alot. I like to think of her and Zack, Farra, Ed, Ezhani, Maz, Lia, Aida and mangkok and so many others of my lil friends having a great time in life.

I'm trying to smile more and complain less. Tell my husband that I love him, and that I feel lucky to have our life. I know that all of my friends would have wanted that.

To my LiL AkMa- VoN Vayage- May Allah bless you in every steps you made.

a song to remember

I Lop my opis mate ;P

Sahabat- by Aizat

Sahabat…mengapa kau pergi

Tinggal aku sendiri

Kau tahu ku tak sanggup

Sahabat…ingat lah kau slalu

Jadi yang terbaik

Walau kau tak disini lagi

Sahabat…aku rindu padamu

Datang walau sesaat

Ku ingin kan kau hadir

Chorus:

Aku disini dan menunggu

Diam tanpa dirimu

Kau tahu ku tak bisa

Beranjak terbang dan melayang

tanpa diri mu ku tak bisa dan kembalilah

- Aizat

This song reminds me of someone..cause when she left without saying goodbye, the song popped in my head, especially the verse,"sahabat aku rindu padamu...datanglah walau sesaat"
The first time I heard this song.. I was like drained..but nvm .. I'm happy now.

Thanks to Al-Walid.

Paintball more like Pain Ball

the peaceful of siLence

On July 26, 2008, I forgot to add up about RWP Paintball Tournament which is held at Astaka PJ just nearby Tun Hussin Onn Eye hospital.

They announced it thru email and I was like >>o-O<<> when I saw my name was there.
It was Saturday morning ;(I had to wake up darn early, 5.30 am during weekend to be precise!Akmal offered to fetch me ;) im so lucky.
So, nevermind. Akmal arrived - chatted a little with my husbby and off we go,to PJ, for paintball. I reached there, with butterflies in my stomache. Thankfully I had a dose of coffee in the morning. It seriously helps I tell you!

Coffee~ Coffee~ Coffee~ Breakfast was provided there.
We waited for everyone to gather and a briefing was given beforehand. All the rules; do's and don't were emphasized and explained and boy, Actually I was scared, my hands were trembling. Xl

Listening to Mr.Commander (forgot his name) explaining about paintball was urm,

entertaining actually.
The moment has arrived, everyone was gearing up and separated into teams. Mine's consisting of:

Razib the QA guy our COOL TeamLeader, Dzir the IT Guy (but he did'nt turn up), Shavan (she's one of the boss secretary), Danial from Structural dept, Azlan from Support Dept, Azwin from Instrument and myself !
Game time!! It's so hard to breathe under the facemask! I seriously suffocated many many times.


Can you indentify who is who?

For sure you can..:P

Before paintball, kena pose pose sikit for confidence!

Soldiers, onward march!
This is right before we headed in for the first round.The gun (it's actually called a marker) was pretty heavy and it's so oily!The pellets that we shot out is actually really oily,once you step on it you'll glide like you've stepped on a banana peel!
So for a final confidence boost before battle!
Safety is a must to be obeyed or face the consequences!

Our L&D Team

So this is how our battlefield looks like.there are tons of things around for us to hide ourselves.

I tell you, whatever confidence you have beforehand,
For the first round, it was like so crazy can!It was my first time in paintball, so it's very hard for me to be "in the zone."I was thankful that I have that Radzi guy backing me up.Luckily I didn't get shot, and I wasn't aware of the surroundings.
Suddenly, Zamri the Mechanical guy who was on the enemy team forced me to surrender!He aim his gun right infront of my head.I can't do anything but to surrender but I vowed,Zamri, I'm gonna get you!
And indeed, I got him!I killed him in the second round!I killed him first with a headshot and then a buttshot.Muahahahahaha happy gilanya aku!
During the third round.Luckily for me, I didn't get shot at all! Although I did kill a few, hehehehehehe.Fourth round, I couldn't breathe!I was so close to passing out so I just stay where I was I don;t even move,I gave my marker to Danial who ran out of pellets and he managed to get the flag.Our team won for that round ;)
For the final round, celaka-ness I ran out of pellets! But, I managed to kill that QA girl before I ended my session. Yay for me!
It was so tiring after we ended, everyone was just drained!But we had some leftover pellets, so we did target practice!We took turns to shoot and it was nothing fun la,just shoot at objects only!I'd rather be shooting humans! (everybody was so damn exicited to shot Mr. Rashdan our HR Manager including me) hahahahahahahaha.
Everyone enjoyed the outing very much, Thanks to the Learning & Develop Department. they work hard to make this happenthat I can see. Hopefully there'll be more of these exciting outings to come!

From this pain-ball game we learn how to be alert so that we are not directly in the angle where they shoot. I only got shot three times during the whole tournament. tell you what,.. after sleeping for 12 hours straight,my body is still aching. I can't even walk up the stairs without feeling excruciating torment,but thinking back about the crazy times I had with the Shouters and shoting that QA girl that day, (sorry eh Liz) it was well worth every drop of sweat and adrenaline rush.But unfortunately haven't been to any since then.this is fun to play and fun to shoot nice action shots!Hehe, yep it is fun. It is challenging as well! Like being in war zone tu la i told you guys, wanna burn some good calories, go paintballing. the energy used, the adrenaline rush fused together hehe, and you'd lose fat too hehe So, before we leave,
we all had lunch after paintball!We were tired, and hungry! Overall, the outing was exciting and I guess everyone will remember it with a BANG! Some even have marks etched on their skin as remembrance too. Hope you guys heal soon yah!

Finally I got the Certificate of Participation From Team Work Clinic

for the PaintBall Tournament held at Malaysia Paintball Academy, PJ.


YeHHH... Bravo to me!!